My December

This is my December,
This is my time of the year,
This is my December,
This is also clear.

Watch the snowflakes falling down,
Watch people being happy all around.
I watch myself being kind,
But I have other thoughts on my mind.

What is this for, is this real?
Does anybody feel the way I feel?
Everything´s superficial, smiles are insincere,
I cannot stand this, I have to get out of here.

So I escape into a secret place,
To live my life in my own pace,
To not see all the lies under the christmas tree.
What is wrong with me?

This is my December,
This is my snow covered home,
This is my December,
This is me alone.